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Wednesday, March 27

Wednesday, March 20

The last two posting are related to each other. So if you are confused read the first one first one first. 

Tuesday, March 19

I've seen that kind of love in many places through my life I just didn't know that's what it was. Just recently I have come into the lives of some old friends and I opened a can of worms that (i'm not sure what the out come is because I haven't go to talk to the person again yet) showed me that even men are capable of this precious gift. Not that I didn't think they were, just that there are some that can be as passionate about this gift as I have become. I have to say that he gave me a whole other view and respect for "men", and I thank him for that. Thank you Tim!!!
I guess what I'm trying to say is this gift (love) never sises to amaze me. Which really is a good thing because, ask yourself really, What would life be like if we weren't trying to find or figure it out for our selves. I know my life is that much better since I finally found it. And all the years it took to find it I wouldn't change because I just might have missed it, again. 
Challenge: Tell the people that are in your life today that really mean something or that have really made an impact on who you are today that you "love" them.
One thing that I have learned in my life time is that mom really was right when she told me that love is the greatest gift you will ever give or receive. I've gone though my life since then looking for that "one" thing we look for in a relationship or friendship and all the other people that come in and out of our live. Little did I know that "one" thing would turn out to be a love that takes no thought, worry, or effort. A love that needs no explanation, it just is. The funny thing is that love came into my life 20 years ago and I didn't even know that's what it was. I truly believe that I wasn't supposed to. My life took me down a path that was going to get me ready to know and understand that love. I believe we all get there at different times. I've seen it in my niece and nephew. (I don't know if they know it or not) But they will. It is truly the most precious gift any one could ever give or receive. 

Sunday, March 17

As kids we thought that our parents just didn't have a clue about anything. We were not going to be like our parents when we grew up. Well I am very grateful for mine today. My father has passed on but my mom is still here and I am grateful for that. I thank them both for the up bring I had and the lessons learned, good and bad times shared, most importantly the love and support. I know for sure that I am who I am today because of who she is then and now. Do you remember the first time you noticed sounding like one of your parents or something  they told you was right but as a kid you didn't believe them? It was shocking to me but yes I can honestly say that Damn you were right mom or dad.
Thank you mom I love.
Challenge: If you can I challenge you all to call and tell your parents that you love them and that you are grateful for the way you were raised.

Friday, March 15

When a child is growing up they should be taught right from wrong, but when that child is old enough, mature enough, to decide for themselves what is right and wrong, It is no longer the teachers (I use this word instead of parents because of our diverse generation that was raised by someone other than their parents) fault as to what that child does. It is the child's decision it should be the child's responsibility. Now what I am saying here is that, me for instance, I was raised by my parents. Mom mostly my dad was a truck drive and was gone alot but his influence was in the house. Anyways they taught me right from wrong, how to act the proper way, to talk, respect for, most importantly, my elders , how to treat the people around me and so on. When I got old enough,I thought anyways, to decide if the way i was taught was right or my ideas were right, on some of those I chose my ideas and was wrong totally wrong.That was my fault not my parents and my parents shouldn't be blamed. Have you heard the saying "Damn boy didn't your mother teach you better then to act that way"........if that boy is old enough to make his own decisions it isn't that his mother didn't teach him he chose that direction. So praise be to the mothers that did the right teaching and didn't get the credit. And to "that boy" act like a man, then be a man and take the responsibility for your own actions. 

Relieving the Pressure: The more and more shootings we have in this countr...

Relieving the Pressure: The more and more shootings we have in this countr...: The more and more shootings we have in this country The more people seem to focus on the mentally ill. Why? Just because people think that m...
The more and more shootings we have in this country The more people seem to focus on the mentally ill. Why? Just because people think that mass murder isn't normal? or People think there has to be something horribly wrong with the person/persons that would do such a thing.How often do they look at the people around them or how they were raised. Maybe that is "their" normal. or Maybe they just really want "them" to shut up and leave 'm alone. or Maybe they were just doing what "they" told'em to do. I don't know for sure about any of that, but I can understand why someone could become homicidal. (I'm just sayin) 

Wednesday, March 13

My mamma told me one time that LOVE is the most precious gift you will ever give or receive. Today I totally agree with her. Once you find that love you realize just how precious it really is.  

Tuesday, March 12

You can sit around and talk about what your going to do or what you want to do but until you actually get out and start doing it your still just sitten around talking about. Don't get much done that way. Nor do you go many places. 

Friday, March 8

Mental illness is (in my opinion only) an illness that touches everyone, and I mean EVERYONE. (directly or indirectly) Whether you know it or not. It is the most misunderstood disease, Yes more misunderstood. WHY? I think because of the stigmas and tainted beliefs that come along with it. Who wants to be labeled with a mental illness. Who wants to be looked upon as a freak or devil or witch? Or someone who just ain't right?
 Now I'm no psychiatrist nor have I studied much about it, but my life has been touched by this disease in so many was.
I believe what we do know about mental illness as been a trial and error process and we still don't really understand. it.
 I don't know for sure but if the world had studied this disease as aggressively as they have cancer and aides, we might know more. It's just easier to push someone who has mental illness in an institution or out on the street then it is to deal with them. BUT WHY??????? could you push a cancer patient out in the street or stick them in a corner and hope that no one notices them??????? NO You flock to them and their loved ones to see if there is anything you can do to help and look upon the mentally ill with discus and judgement. even our loved ones tend to push us away it just easier to do that then to learn something we don't know much about. 
I challenge all of you to do something for someone with a mental illness:  TRY UNDERSTANDING IT 


I don't understand TGIF. Why not TGIF or TGIT that would cover two days a week? I really think we spend more time wishing it was Friday then necessary. I have an idea.............Lets try TG every day for a week and see what happens..........I bet the whole weeks gets better.

Thursday, March 7

Today's ride is in a dark blue to a light purple in color. Nothing like yesterdays but one hell of a ride anyways. Sometimes we have people come into our lives to stay, sometimes for just a brief moment, or a short time. I hope that everyone that I cross paths with leave me in a better state of mind, mood or thought, then when they first came into my life. Now I know that is impossible to do because I know me. I'm so good at big a Royal Pain in every ones ass. Not all the time put I do have my moments.

I used to live in Amarillo while I was there I was OCD to a point I know everyone was ready for me to leave  before I did. What's funny about that is that seems to be the vote at most places I have been in or at for a length of time. What I no that no one else does, (which makes it funny to) is that I didn't like 99.9% of them either so I acted accordingly. Webster is still working on a word for that.......................

Wednesday, March 6

I really like when Life decides to through the little things in there that make us go HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS. It just adds fuel to my fire. You see it used to bother me with great pains when the people in my life had to go through things tha I didn't understand or know about. Today I don't have to know everything to be ok. I am ok just the way I am. Yes you got this is one of those if you don't like the way I am right this very minute then it is your lose not mine. I AM WHO I AM AND THAT'S ALL I'M GOING TO BE.
The sky is clearing, the lights are all on and I have come full circle once again. I'm just sorry that it has to affect the people in my life the way it does. But I've coe to believe that that is their choice. I'm a fighter and believe me I will win this fight if it means losing it to get it done.

Tuesday, March 5

I don't like to sleep. Well actually I don't like the time between being awake and going to sleep nor do I like the time between sleeping and waking up. If you have ever experienced sleep paralysis you can understand what I'm talking about.I call it sleep coma. It's where you are awake but you can't move or speak. You hear everything that's going on around you but you are absolutely paralyzed. I've never been in a coma but that is what I think it would feel like. You know, the Dr.'s say "Go ahead and talk to them they can hear what your say." Have you ever wondered if they where trying to talk to you..........."Hey I'm still alive in here don't let them turn off that machine I have alot of life yet to live........I am tired and ready to go. Please unplug the machine so I can go on and go........" Yeah that's the kind of crazy stuff that runs around in my head..............
Writing helps to relieve the pressure. The way my head hurts right now I will be writing for a long long time.....................................


Don't walk in front of me 
I may not follow
Don't walk behind me 
I may not lead
Walk beside me 
And just be my 
FRIEND.

Monday, March 4

Ok so I'm not very good at this so for the first few weeks Please be patient with me. Now I didn't go and say that you need to pray for patience, I really wouldn't. I was at this retreat one time up in the mountains and there was just a few of us. (This place could have housed 10 or 15 more) One mid morning we prayed for patience and 15 more showed up..............................Thanks AKQ for that one.
The content and/or subject matter of this blog will vary as we go along. I have created this blog to help relieve the pressure that  builds up in my head. I don't ever really say much out loud.  I'm the listener. So lets see how this goes.